We put one year behind us, we put two, three… then several passed.
So we look back, see the tracks made by our footprints, remember one phrase has been brought up a lot that we should've known it better, we'll never do this ever again.
You say you are learning, once upon a time I hoped so sincerely that someday I would make myself a better soul.
Emptiness and vanity fill the hole up and mocking our ignorance. How naive we were back then, how are we at the moment.
Somehow we are back to Square One, one thing that has changed is that we have become a better avoider,  mastered  how to subconsciously figure out what we should and have to block out of our mind for the poor piece of peace that lying deep inside. I still cannot be sure if the mission has succeeded.
I am a small dot that gradually disappearing with the distance from the real world. Do you still see me? Can you?
Now I'm way too confused to know where this is going, I just want to be effortless and gain a huge deal. How stupid is that anyway. It has nothing to do with others, seems like I’ m the only one that matters to me and still hopelessly chose to live in the dark.

Lighting the cigarette cannot make you brighter and bigger enough to be seen, not from here. I just want to use my way, so please let me. Good luck.